Reflections Of A Desi Mom

-I am not doing enough! -Am I giving enough nutrition to my child? -Shall I continue/quit with my job? -How will I afford the daycare/nanny if I quit my job? -I am around my child too much as a SAHM! -I have no time left to do anything of my own! -Am I eating healthy enough to keep lactating? -I don't have any/enough help! -If only I can have more help, I can spend more time with my baby/child? -Helper/Nanny/Mom/MIL is a great help, but are not doing it how I want to do! -Why am I expected to do everything for my child and still being told You cannot manage alone? -What is with all the criticism? -If child bearing takes a village - where will I find it??? All of these and many such thoughts cross a young mother's mind these days.. Unfortunately none of the parenting or baby books and websites prepare us to answer any of these questions. 😐  But all of these are absolutely NORMAL.  Sometimes the well meaning and loving ladies in our lives too don't anticipate these challenge

What happens when a blogger is not able to find enough words to express what they are feeling?  It means either something too tragic or extremely wonderful has happened!  Day before yesterday I knew I am going to have a great day because of how I felt and how I took the change in the calendar.. Done with 30s But little did I know I was in for not 1 - but many small n huge surprises!  Now, when you are a close knit nuclear family its difficult to keep secrets and plan out something different than routine - and when it comes to men doing it (hidden from wives ) - its even more difficult or so it seems.... 😎😜😆 Midnight Surprise -  We had just finished watching Indian Idol when my perky 9.5 yr old decided she is feeling sleepy and instead surprised me with a big huge dairy milk silk and balloons to welcome the clock striking 12!  It followed by family video call where I was reminded how it felt like just yesterday I was born in the middle of a chaos (in the city) uff... aate hi panga 😱

Few hours on the clock and the decade will flip! Few hours and the calendar will show the D day and my 4th decade on this earth will be over.  The last time the decade changed for me I was pregnant with N and wishing I and J were not 7 samundar away!  This time I got my favourite kind of dresses stitched ..just the way I like it and went to pamper myself just a lil when I know N is soooo excited about my birthday.. More than anyone actually :-D   The stylist today was tempted to tell me to colour all my greys with the line of hair products he had shelved... But didn't.. perhaps thought its useless LOL...or rather I was too busy enjoying the beautiful playlist going in the background while he tamed my overflowing hair...                                        Am I undergoing a mid-life crisis trying to accept that I am turning 40??!!  Hell NO!  Even though I have a handful of regrets, I am extremely grateful of having got this life. Grateful of having people who love me unconditiona